on sunday, joghin called from bogor as he was trying to find a christmas card with a pic of santa claus+reinders for his church painting projects.
it's funny how it seems like it's not like christmas seasons and receiving his call kinda reminded me that... HEI... it's christmas people!!!!!!!!
7 hours before the call, even when tongkee asked me to see the christmas tree she has set in the living room, i still found it hard to grasp that this is the season of christmas.
the questions are: WHY... WHY... WHY do i feel that way???
well, i guess it's because it's quite hot here... yeah.. just blame it on the weather!!! mmmmhhh, beside that, i think it's me who spiritually is not that okey... see, i hate the fact that it takes quite long for me to heal the pain, to be totally free in Your unconditional love, to be really ME in YOU.
last saturday, i happened to talk to nandis as he checked things out of me. he still could tell that i'm still not that okey... that i'm still quite a wreck deep inside.
this morning, i confess again, that I am YOURs, that i am willing to be go back to the last momment--the last track i left you and start from there again. well, i'm sorry for running n thanks for chasing me out with all the best effort U have. realizing that i just dont deserve it makes me realize once again, that YOUR love is not based in what i did/am doing/do/will be doing... it's simply as YOU've decided to do so.. J'taime Je :-)
new years is also right there on the corner, JE... i'm ready to have another journey in the chapter called 2008 with You...
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