diam merenung

jam 7'an p.m aGi$ig4$ kirim sms...kurang lbih chatting sms qt ky gini:

aGi$ig4$ [aG] : dimana?

*ngedesah mles reply*

Gue [G] : [with maroon5 through the earphones] lg ngerenung n nge'milo
aG : minum milo dimana?

*aG nelp*
*G males angkat*

aG : telp ga diangkat

*30 mnit'an lbih*

G : di dpn g lg ad sgelas milo, stumpukan laporan keuangan. lg di macdy. dimana lg coba ada yg jual milo mantap slaen dimacdy :-) lg knsen
aG : lo lg mo sndiri y nast?
G : iy
aG : ya udah g blik

smalem kesibukan g yg lg ngerapiin keuangan koal jd alesan yg sempurna u/ 'ngusir' aGi$ig4$ u/ ga dteng. u/ ga nemenin.

maaf...
blakangan kehadiran lo ga lagi jadi satu hal yg menyenangkan n menghangatkan.
dalam artian yg sbener2ny.
sms2 lo ga lagi penting u/ g tetep g save d inbox.


kadang kita perlu diam
kadang kita perlu merenung
merenung dalam diam
gak perlu ngeluarin kata-kata
cuma diam
menghindari luka, menghindari sakit
dan sekarang, kita diam
katanya sih, menikmati kesunyian

[backsound]

Enjoy The Silence
by Depeche Mode
Words like violence,
break the silence
Come crashing in,
into my little world
Painful to me,
pierce right through me
Can't you understand, oh my little girl
All I ever wanted,
all I ever neededIs here in my arms,
words are very unnecessary,
they can only do harm
Vows are spoken,
to be broken
Feelings are intense,
words are trivial
Pleasures remain,
so does the pain
Words are meaningless and forgettable
All I ever wanted,
all I ever needed
Is here in my arms,
words are very unnecessary,
they can only do harm

note: dari minggu lalu ngebahas kata depeche ma meera...

ga ktemu.

ga dpet.

akhirny kita ambil satu kesimpulan bahwa depeche = bahasa prancis :-)..

baru smalem meera sms n blang bhwa salah satu game monkey2 di hp'ny ada tulisan 'depeche mode'. masih ga jlas pa arti ni kata.. anyone???

moving on in indigo mode

23 Jul. 07
Monday
@07:59 p.m


Status g hari ni n hari2 blakangan ni: Indigo.

Terjemahan bebas: g lagi dalam keadaan indigo yg mnurut ap yg g liat di google berarti dark blue nympur ma dye purple n deep violet.

Indigo tuh biru yg campur aduk kaya gitu.
Secara psikologi n spiritual g lagi tercampur aduk.

Campuran antara=
*dark blue
State mellow yg tiap bbrapa belas jam dlm shari buat g blakangan nemuin diri g crying in the rain or paling ga brkaca2.
sedih ketika u/ beberapa kalinya g sadar bhwa g dah ditolak, dtidak&salahmengerti, diacuhkan, diusir, ddpak, d’asumsikan negative…
Pintu self pity kbuka lebar banget ngundang g u/ masuk n tinggal menetap disana. Ruangan2 kepahitan dngan makhluk2 yg bernama kekecewaan, kemarahan, loser, unworthy n spasukan makhluk2 lain dengan judul dan tema yg serupa dah pd nunggu nongkrongin g u/ hang out ma mereka... n tiap kali g tergoda u/ terima undangan mereka, g bertransformasi mejadi dye purple...

*dye purple
The sparkle of hope is there, though. Harapan yg ngeyakinin g bahwa Engkau ada & w/ me all the way through J that’s comforting in a maximally big way. Warna yg ngerem kaki g u/ masuk k pintu n menetap d ruangan self pity.
Purple yg kbalikan dari anggepan orang as warna janda jd lambang yg sbaliknya u/ku.
Ungu mengingatkanku bahwa Engkau kekeh u/ terus memutuskan u/ mendampingiku.
mbentukku jd sperti yg mau...
Ungu warna tanda pnyertaanMu.
Immanuel. God's with me.
Ungu as ungu disaat2 perayaan pekan hari suci dimana warna ungu bertebaran distiap sudut altar. Ungu jd lambang that nothing can seperate me from u n that Engkau bkerja di dlam sgala hal u/ mendatangkan kbaikan u’ku.
Dimana warna ungu membungkus salibMu. Salib yang bkuasa mentransformasiku menjadi deep violet...

*deep violet
Huruf ‘V’ yang ada di violet bicara soal victory in me coz of u. Tadi pagi baca rom8:37...
‘through all these, i am more than a conqueror’
Tingkat dua rumah k’agus yg berfungsi jd tmpat jemuran denger g ngucap k diri g sendiri, Engkau, dan mereka semua bahwa dalam semuanya, g jadi neeta yg bisa menaklukan adukan urek2an emosi g u/ bs ttep berespon dengan benar.
Jadi neeta yg mampu menaklukan ktakutan menghadapi ketidakmenentuan di jakarta nanti. Sampai td dmacdy mbil itung2 dana pribadi, g ciut wktu sadar bhwa g ga punya financial protection u/even sbulan djakarta tnpa pkerjaan...tapi inget lagi bhwa g ga sharusnya naro harapan ma hal2 yg ga pasti. Sounds too good to say.
Sounds like a self denial but than on that yellow macdy chair with a paper glass in front of me i turned from dark blue to dye purple n eventually to deep violet.

I’m an indigo girl lately...

I am changed around and around by u n what u’ve been whispering in my ear, soul, n heart lately.

Fakta laen hari ni:
· baca email dr nandis. N bcnya aj bua g feel good n warm that he cared enough to type that kinda long email for the sake of just wanted to make sure that i’m making a right decision. Just wanted to make sure that i’m in ur track.
· Td liat tulisan ‘indigo girl’ d kharisma. Sms’an ma meera ngebahas tu kata n ktemu definisi lengkap ma gambar2 nya..

Dah mo jam 9p.m. gotta go d.. G’nite :-*

satu hari lg dmataram

turun kota dari hr minggu. breng bu RT n kurni plus rasyid jg.

kl mood n kondisi g bisa di deskripsiin pake warna... warna yg tepat itu indigo.

note: indigo= deep purple, dye blue

not that i am feeling blue or something like that.
nope.
not like that at all.
indigo ngegambarin g yg lagi hopeful n peaceful.
ditngah2 kecrowdedan yg ad, ditengah2 sikap2 aneh yg g tmuin dr bbrapa orng yg dl g pikir g knal.
g tmuin diri g peaceful.
damai.
prayful.
hopeful.
indigo.

hi there!!!

*smile*

have made an ac sometimes ago

forget the password

forget the title

so, here i am...

making a new one...

"blog is NOT a place for free expression, it is for good impression"

read this sentences from wazeen's blog

he told me it was actually from 'mine yours ours'...

statemen yg cukup 'ganggu' hati g n bikin ngeh that my previous blog di FS is not really a place for me expressing myself in a total free mode... it's more about *sigh* *sigh* making good impression which is annoying!!! it's just that i havent really pour out what's on my babling [complicated] head n heart.

hopefully,

this one is more honest

the one that make u really really see me--the real me--truly madly n deeply

more anastneeta

j'taime,

jamboo

*crossing my fingers*

*smile*