*smile*
hei, blogspot dah ga tlalu lama lagi hari ini. spanjang minggu kmaren, hnya u/ posting aja, bs satu jam'an baru bisa masuk. hari ini, it happens in just a split minutes hehehe
aniwei, here are some highlights from the previous week (23feb - o1mar'o8):
# g mulai aktif di wb, which is great!!!!!
# mulai dari hari rabu kmaren, g dah mulai teach bahasa indonesia ke satu orang warga kuwait named: mr. ali. he is a tipycal kuwaitan business man who needs n is so eager to be able to master bahasa indonesia. upppzzzz, rada nampar diri g sndiri, secara notabene, dlm sehari, bhkan g jarang bicara pakai bahasa indo. rasio persentasinya sama bahasa inggris n bhasa tubuh mendekati 70%-30% hehehe...
makanya lagi suka nulis pakai bhasa indo yang sbenernya lebih kaya (with kapital K) makna n arti :-) bhasa inggris juga seh, tapi, g lagi kagum sm blog "penari mungil" yang buat g indah bnget penuturannya dlam bahasa.
kembali ke Mr. Ali... ngajar dia kaya ngajar baca anak SD. tp seru, krna g bisa blajar cross culture orang timur tengah. kadang, ditengah2 break session, kita suka ngobrolin bedanya jakarta n kuwait.
satu fakta n informasi penting so far dari dia adalah: bhwa dalam sehari, kuwait bisa berubah cuaca, dari yang panas 75derajat C smpe minus 2derajat C. dia pernah dari supermarket lupa bawa masuk ke dalam rumah n tanpa sadar meninggalkan telor2 itu di dalam mobil. dalam jangka waktu kurang dari 2 jam, waktu dia inget u/ ngambil lagi, dia menemukan telor2 itu dalam keadaan mateng... kaya kerebus gt!!!!!
informasi penting lain adalah: sperti negara2 timur tengah, kuwat sangat sangat sangat (g dah cukup bilang sangat belom???) berdebu. so, pesan moral dari interaksi g ma dia sejauh ini adalah: pastikan g ga ke kuwait kalo ga perlu2 banget!!!! gue??? dan debu??? panas??? ga bisa nyambung :-)
other highlite of the week, jumat kmaren, area buat farewell party u/ nandis. g ngomong bentar kesan2 di"zolimi" ma dia. dan g slalu benci nemuin diri g mellow n jadi bkaca2 dngan muka merah padam nahan nangis. tadi di ibadah, waktu doa buat ngutus mereka, g mau diimpartasi lagi hati yang kaya gt. yang mau pergi.
ooohhhh, satu lagi..
# gajian!!! jadi bisa mulai ngaturin pos2 u/ ansuransi, bulanan, n beberapa debt yg harus g urus.
ngomong2 soal ansuransi, g rada BT ("rada" sebenernya satu kata yang cukup halus u/ mengkamuflase rasa JENGKEL g)ma pak.JB yang jd agen ansuransi g. g bingung n kesel, g sbenernya ikut ansuransi or lagi ngutang n ditagih2 debt kolektor y?? dia tuh assertive menjengkelkan yang snagat2 ga penting n ,menurut g, ga etis lagi. tp diliat dari sisi positifnya, g jadi mang "terpaksa" nyisihin uang buat pos ansuransi.
beberapa hal masih harus g improve minggu depan lagi. things like:
# sate pagi2!!! come on neeta,,, u can wake up early KAYA DULU!!
# OR
# jadi lebih terorganisir
# buat report keuangan pribadi
# blacklist all those numbers in screen page!!!
well, I'm ready to go to the next week... with u,
Saturday, March 01, 2008
Monday, February 25, 2008
blog dalam bahasa indo
g lagi terkagum2 (lagi) sama indahnya bhasa indonesia. bahasa indonesia tuh kaya bnget ma ekspresi2 yang bikin g suka termingkem2. hehehe
well, g coba tulis blog dalam bahasa indo ya... mungkin masih campur2 inggris, a little :-)
well, g coba tulis blog dalam bahasa indo ya... mungkin masih campur2 inggris, a little :-)
Sunday, 24 February, 2008 at 09:02 p.m.
Minggu hari ini
G brasa ga jadi manusia. Satu2nya yang mengingatkan bahwa g masih manusia adalah bahwa g masih merasa. Walopun hari ini perasaan2 dan emosi2 yang g punya hampir smuanya negatif, at least g masih bisa merasa. Satu kata yang cocok untuk menggambarkan warna hati g adalah burek. Burek sperti campuran tanah yang sudah terinjak2 puluhan jejak spatu kotor bercampur air hujan. Yup, burek as like that.
Masih merupakan suatu hal yang menjengkelkan untuk menemukan suasana hati g bisa swift ke arah yang berbeda, ke mood yang sangat berlawanan, hanya dalam hitungan beberapa jam. Sabtu kemaren, g masih jadi manusia yang nikmati stiap moment bersosialisasi. Walo settingnya di rumah duka kung2 echi di gatot subroto, ttep g nikmatin fakta g bsosialisasi ma orang2 yang blakangan g hindari.
Itu kemaren.
Hari ini, g jadi sperti manusia yang khilangan charge batre.
Tergoda u/ menyalahkan kondisi finansial g yang hampir bangkrut, menyalahkan kepala g yang lagi gampang pusing n kekurangan oksigen, menyalahkan temperamen satu orang rumah yang lagi brengsek, cuaca yang ga jelas, acara TV yang ga da yang bagus, khidupan sosial g yang sama ga jelasnya dengan cuaca jakarta blakangan, kosongnya kotak inbox yang seakan jadi parameter ga jelasnya khidupan sosial g, dll.
Tapi…
Semua hal diatas tadi bukan penyebab low’nya g hari ini. Penyebab utama dropnya mood g hari ini, g sadar, adalah karena g ga mulai hari dengan benar. Saat teduh seakan jadi formalitas u/ memulai hari. Bukan jadi hal yang menyenangkan. Sempet mikir “g butuh gitar u/ sate”. Tapi bukan itu, g ga butuh alat musik apapun. Yang g butuhin adalah rasa lapar dan haus dateng ma Dia. Biarkan Dia isi kekosongan hati n jiwa g.
G masih bgantung ma hal2 di luar g. Bergantung sama manusia untuk buat g brasa jadi manusia.
Bergantung sama inbox nokia g untuk buat g brasa g manusia sosial yang exist.
Bergantung sama keuangan g u/ buat g mrasa jadi manusia yang sukses materially.
Bergantung sama baju2 dan sgala pernak/ik yang bisa g pake u/ buat g brasa jadi manusia yang punya fashion statement -- Manusia yang penuh, wanita yang seutuhnya.
In my attempt to be (in my opinion) whole, g mulai ngebanding2in diri g ma sederetan para wanita lain. G mulai menginginkan apa yang mereka punya, dan yang g punya. G mulai berharap g bisa punya tombol special yang bisa buat g ganti plot n naskah hidup g, ganti para pemain pendukung dan pemain figuran dan setting hidup g. G mulai ga melihat bahwa g adalah g yang unik dan ga da yang kaya g. G mulai ga mensyukuri apa yang Dia kasih k g. Dengan keras kepala, g masih sedikit berharap I wish I were someone else but me. Selain mulai ngebanding2ini diri g n wish I were someone else, g masih temuin diri g ada dalam lingkaran kebohongan yang g ciptain. Mata rantainya gitu, I wish I were someone else n I’ve been starting to live in lies I created to make me feel that I’m someone else. Pathetic, I know. Really pathetic!!!! Topeng2 g tsimpan rapi di tas kasat mata g.
Topeng profesionalisme untuk di kantor.
Topeng rohani di aktifitas kerohanian.
Topeng liar dan brengsek untuk orang dan nomor2 tertentu.
Je, please let me be me in You. Aku cape ma hidupku, dan kembali aku serahin balik naskah n plotku ke Engkau sbagai sutradara dan penulis hidupku ya.
G brasa ga jadi manusia. Satu2nya yang mengingatkan bahwa g masih manusia adalah bahwa g masih merasa. Walopun hari ini perasaan2 dan emosi2 yang g punya hampir smuanya negatif, at least g masih bisa merasa. Satu kata yang cocok untuk menggambarkan warna hati g adalah burek. Burek sperti campuran tanah yang sudah terinjak2 puluhan jejak spatu kotor bercampur air hujan. Yup, burek as like that.
Masih merupakan suatu hal yang menjengkelkan untuk menemukan suasana hati g bisa swift ke arah yang berbeda, ke mood yang sangat berlawanan, hanya dalam hitungan beberapa jam. Sabtu kemaren, g masih jadi manusia yang nikmati stiap moment bersosialisasi. Walo settingnya di rumah duka kung2 echi di gatot subroto, ttep g nikmatin fakta g bsosialisasi ma orang2 yang blakangan g hindari.
Itu kemaren.
Hari ini, g jadi sperti manusia yang khilangan charge batre.
Tergoda u/ menyalahkan kondisi finansial g yang hampir bangkrut, menyalahkan kepala g yang lagi gampang pusing n kekurangan oksigen, menyalahkan temperamen satu orang rumah yang lagi brengsek, cuaca yang ga jelas, acara TV yang ga da yang bagus, khidupan sosial g yang sama ga jelasnya dengan cuaca jakarta blakangan, kosongnya kotak inbox yang seakan jadi parameter ga jelasnya khidupan sosial g, dll.
Tapi…
Semua hal diatas tadi bukan penyebab low’nya g hari ini. Penyebab utama dropnya mood g hari ini, g sadar, adalah karena g ga mulai hari dengan benar. Saat teduh seakan jadi formalitas u/ memulai hari. Bukan jadi hal yang menyenangkan. Sempet mikir “g butuh gitar u/ sate”. Tapi bukan itu, g ga butuh alat musik apapun. Yang g butuhin adalah rasa lapar dan haus dateng ma Dia. Biarkan Dia isi kekosongan hati n jiwa g.
G masih bgantung ma hal2 di luar g. Bergantung sama manusia untuk buat g brasa jadi manusia.
Bergantung sama inbox nokia g untuk buat g brasa g manusia sosial yang exist.
Bergantung sama keuangan g u/ buat g mrasa jadi manusia yang sukses materially.
Bergantung sama baju2 dan sgala pernak/ik yang bisa g pake u/ buat g brasa jadi manusia yang punya fashion statement -- Manusia yang penuh, wanita yang seutuhnya.
In my attempt to be (in my opinion) whole, g mulai ngebanding2in diri g ma sederetan para wanita lain. G mulai menginginkan apa yang mereka punya, dan yang g punya. G mulai berharap g bisa punya tombol special yang bisa buat g ganti plot n naskah hidup g, ganti para pemain pendukung dan pemain figuran dan setting hidup g. G mulai ga melihat bahwa g adalah g yang unik dan ga da yang kaya g. G mulai ga mensyukuri apa yang Dia kasih k g. Dengan keras kepala, g masih sedikit berharap I wish I were someone else but me. Selain mulai ngebanding2ini diri g n wish I were someone else, g masih temuin diri g ada dalam lingkaran kebohongan yang g ciptain. Mata rantainya gitu, I wish I were someone else n I’ve been starting to live in lies I created to make me feel that I’m someone else. Pathetic, I know. Really pathetic!!!! Topeng2 g tsimpan rapi di tas kasat mata g.
Topeng profesionalisme untuk di kantor.
Topeng rohani di aktifitas kerohanian.
Topeng liar dan brengsek untuk orang dan nomor2 tertentu.
Je, please let me be me in You. Aku cape ma hidupku, dan kembali aku serahin balik naskah n plotku ke Engkau sbagai sutradara dan penulis hidupku ya.
Monday, February 18, 2008
get in the shift with k'pol
while doing zenko's translation project, kp called to join her learning to drive. well, it's such a great xcuse just to get my butt out of the chair n get some refreshing time!!!! note: i've not met my bed for almost 24 hours
edoy, the instructor
kp, the learner
enjoying the ride... ga jauh2, kdaerah2 gading jg.. smpet k sports mall pula.. pheewwww poca is rite, g cm bisa gaul di gading ja hehehe
note: tanggal n time di fotonya salah tuh... maklum lupa di set ulang time tag'nya...
edoy, the instructor
kp, the learnerenjoying the ride... ga jauh2, kdaerah2 gading jg.. smpet k sports mall pula.. pheewwww poca is rite, g cm bisa gaul di gading ja hehehe
note: tanggal n time di fotonya salah tuh... maklum lupa di set ulang time tag'nya...
from the street
without a really heavy ad., bjork was scheduled to have a live concert on 12th february. well, for me, bjork is an undoubtedly superb genius artist.
love her music!!!
yellow n orange!!!! just a perfect colour combination for street sign. talk about how i am crazy with these two colours hehehe
having these rite in crowded messy dempet area is like having a sunflower plant among bushes. too lebay, huh??
Monday, February 11, 2008
FRIday o1.o2.o8
got my butt out of the house.
i've just arrived at itc cmpaka when all vehicles were reluctant to go on as the flood was too high to go thru [it was already at adult chest level]... so, i spent about a couple hours shopping around before taking a bajaj drive back home.
Saturday, February 09, 2008
snapshots of o1FeB'o8
sometimes ago, when i was walking under my (doubted creation called) umbrella *as it has the name umbrella, yet, it doesnt look like one, i kinda thinking that january is sposed to be rainy session n i was kinda upset that it had been so annoyingly dry n super hot those days.
and, here it came, at the very early start of february... the rain came down like an answered prayer.
i was kinda smiling telling you: "hei, dont take my prayer that seriously" hehehe :-)
FYI, it was raining like crazy one whole day. n jakarta -- not suprisingly-- was flooded up bad. traffic was like everywhere. i still managed to go to gading that day. well, that was a good decision to go out under the storm like that as i was able to see the flooded sunter.
i'll download some snapshots i make rite on that day later. gtg.
Monday, February 04, 2008
more of the personality test
INFP - The "Dreamer" Myers-Briggs Personality Types (Free Test)
INFPs are introspective, private, creative and highly idealistic individuals that have a constant desire to be on a meaningful path. They are driven by their values and seek peace. Empathetic and compassionate, they want to help others and humanity as a whole. INFPs are imaginitive, artistic and often have a talent for language and writing. They can also be described as easygoing, selfless, guarded, adaptable, patient and loyal.
Details
Preferences
Introverted
iNtuition
Feeling
Perceiving
Temperament
NF (Visionary)
INFP Population
Total: 2%
Male: 1.5%
Female: 2.5%
Primary Function
Introverted Feeling
Secondary Function
Extraverted Intuition
Tertiary Function
Introverted Sensing
Least Function
Extraverted Thinking
About the INFP Expert Quotes & Links
"To understand Healers, we must understand their idealism as almost boundless and selfless, inspiring them to make extraordinary sacrifices for someone or something they believe in. The Healer is the Prince or Princess of fairytale, the King's Champion or Defender of the Faith..."
- The Portrait of a Healer Idealist (Keirsey)
"INFPs are highly intuitive about people. They rely heavily on their intuitions to guide them, and use their discoveries to constantly search for value in life. They are on a continuous mission to find the truth and meaning underlying things. Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained gets sifted through the INFP's value system, and is evaluated to see if it has any potential to help the INFP define or refine their own path in life."
- Portrait of an INFP (The Personality Page)
"creative, smart, idealist, loner, attracted to sad things, disorganized, avoidant, can be overwhelmed by unpleasant feelings..."
- INFP Jung Type Descriptions (similarminds.com)
"An INFP's feelings form the foundations of the individual. They are sacred and binding, in the sense that their emergence requires no further justification. An INFP's feelings are often guarded, kept safe from attack and ridicule. Only a few, close confidants are permitted entrance into this domain."
- INFP Profile (INFP Mailing List)
"Highly creative, artistic and spiritual, they can produce wonderful works of art, music and literature. INFPs are natural artists. They will find great satisfaction if they encourage and develop their artistic abilities. That doesn't mean that an INFP has to be a famous writer or painter in order to be content. Simply the act of "creating" will be a fulfilling source of renewal and refreshment to the INFP. An INFP should allow himself or herself some artistic outlet, because it will add enrichment and positive energy to their life."
- INFP Personal Growth (The Personality Page)
"INFPs never seem to lose their sense of wonder. One might say they see life through rose-colored glasses. It's as though they live at the edge of a looking-glassworld where mundane objects come to life, where flora and fauna take on near-human qualities."
- INFP Profile (TypeLogic)
"Their job must be fun, although not racous, and it must be meaningful to them. They need a strong purpose in their work. They want to be recognized and valued, without undue attention given to them. They may become embarrassed when make the center of attention. As a result, they may undersell their strengths in order to avoid being singled out and made to feel conspicuous. They would rather have their worth be noticed gradually over time."
- INFP - The Dreamer (Lifexplore)
Famous INFPs; Real INFP People
A. A. Milne - author (Winnie the Pooh)
Albert Schweitzer - theologian, musician, physician
Aldous Huxley - English author
Amy Tan - author (The Joy-Luck Club)
Annie Dillard - author (Pilgrim at Tinker Creek)
Audrey Hepburn - actress (Breakfast at Tiffany's)
Dick Clark - television personality
Donna Reed - acress
Fred Rogers - Mister Rogers' Neighborhood
Fred Savage - actor (The Wonder Years)
George Orwell - author, journalist
Helen Keller - deaf/blind author, activist, lecturer
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow - American poet
Isabel Myers - psychological theorist
J. R. R. Tolkien - writer (Lord of the Rings)
James Herriot - veterinary surgeon, writer
James Taylor - singer-songwriter, guitarist
John - Disciple of Jesus
John F. Kennedy, Jr. - lawyer, journalist, publisher
Laura Ingalls Wilder - author (Little House on the Prairie)
Lisa Kudrow - actress ("Phoebe" on Friends)
Luke - physician, author
Mary - Mother of Jesus
Mia Farrow - actress
Neil Diamond - musician
Peter Jackson - filmmaker (Lord of the Rings
Princess Diana - Princess of Wales
Scott Bakula - actor (Start Trek Enterprise)
Tom Brokaw - television journalist
Virgil - ancient Roman poet
William Shakespeare - English poet and playwright
Fictional INFPs (Characters)
Anne - Anne of Green Gables
Bastian Balthazar Bux - The Neverending Story
Calvin - Calvin and Hobbes
Deanna Troi - Star Trek: The Next Generation
Doctor Julian Bashir - Star Trek: Deep Space 9
Doug Funnie - Doug cartoon
E.T. - E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial
Fox Mulder - X-Files
Rocko - Rocko's Modern Life
Tommy Pickles - Rugrats
Wesley Crusher - Star Trek: The Next Generation
INFPs are introspective, private, creative and highly idealistic individuals that have a constant desire to be on a meaningful path. They are driven by their values and seek peace. Empathetic and compassionate, they want to help others and humanity as a whole. INFPs are imaginitive, artistic and often have a talent for language and writing. They can also be described as easygoing, selfless, guarded, adaptable, patient and loyal.
Details
Preferences
Introverted
iNtuition
Feeling
Perceiving
Temperament
NF (Visionary)
INFP Population
Total: 2%
Male: 1.5%
Female: 2.5%
Primary Function
Introverted Feeling
Secondary Function
Extraverted Intuition
Tertiary Function
Introverted Sensing
Least Function
Extraverted Thinking
About the INFP Expert Quotes & Links
"To understand Healers, we must understand their idealism as almost boundless and selfless, inspiring them to make extraordinary sacrifices for someone or something they believe in. The Healer is the Prince or Princess of fairytale, the King's Champion or Defender of the Faith..."
- The Portrait of a Healer Idealist (Keirsey)
"INFPs are highly intuitive about people. They rely heavily on their intuitions to guide them, and use their discoveries to constantly search for value in life. They are on a continuous mission to find the truth and meaning underlying things. Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained gets sifted through the INFP's value system, and is evaluated to see if it has any potential to help the INFP define or refine their own path in life."
- Portrait of an INFP (The Personality Page)
"creative, smart, idealist, loner, attracted to sad things, disorganized, avoidant, can be overwhelmed by unpleasant feelings..."
- INFP Jung Type Descriptions (similarminds.com)
"An INFP's feelings form the foundations of the individual. They are sacred and binding, in the sense that their emergence requires no further justification. An INFP's feelings are often guarded, kept safe from attack and ridicule. Only a few, close confidants are permitted entrance into this domain."
- INFP Profile (INFP Mailing List)
"Highly creative, artistic and spiritual, they can produce wonderful works of art, music and literature. INFPs are natural artists. They will find great satisfaction if they encourage and develop their artistic abilities. That doesn't mean that an INFP has to be a famous writer or painter in order to be content. Simply the act of "creating" will be a fulfilling source of renewal and refreshment to the INFP. An INFP should allow himself or herself some artistic outlet, because it will add enrichment and positive energy to their life."
- INFP Personal Growth (The Personality Page)
"INFPs never seem to lose their sense of wonder. One might say they see life through rose-colored glasses. It's as though they live at the edge of a looking-glassworld where mundane objects come to life, where flora and fauna take on near-human qualities."
- INFP Profile (TypeLogic)
"Their job must be fun, although not racous, and it must be meaningful to them. They need a strong purpose in their work. They want to be recognized and valued, without undue attention given to them. They may become embarrassed when make the center of attention. As a result, they may undersell their strengths in order to avoid being singled out and made to feel conspicuous. They would rather have their worth be noticed gradually over time."
- INFP - The Dreamer (Lifexplore)
Famous INFPs; Real INFP People
A. A. Milne - author (Winnie the Pooh)
Albert Schweitzer - theologian, musician, physician
Aldous Huxley - English author
Amy Tan - author (The Joy-Luck Club)
Annie Dillard - author (Pilgrim at Tinker Creek)
Audrey Hepburn - actress (Breakfast at Tiffany's)
Dick Clark - television personality
Donna Reed - acress
Fred Rogers - Mister Rogers' Neighborhood
Fred Savage - actor (The Wonder Years)
George Orwell - author, journalist
Helen Keller - deaf/blind author, activist, lecturer
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow - American poet
Isabel Myers - psychological theorist
J. R. R. Tolkien - writer (Lord of the Rings)
James Herriot - veterinary surgeon, writer
James Taylor - singer-songwriter, guitarist
John - Disciple of Jesus
John F. Kennedy, Jr. - lawyer, journalist, publisher
Laura Ingalls Wilder - author (Little House on the Prairie)
Lisa Kudrow - actress ("Phoebe" on Friends)
Luke - physician, author
Mary - Mother of Jesus
Mia Farrow - actress
Neil Diamond - musician
Peter Jackson - filmmaker (Lord of the Rings
Princess Diana - Princess of Wales
Scott Bakula - actor (Start Trek Enterprise)
Tom Brokaw - television journalist
Virgil - ancient Roman poet
William Shakespeare - English poet and playwright
Fictional INFPs (Characters)
Anne - Anne of Green Gables
Bastian Balthazar Bux - The Neverending Story
Calvin - Calvin and Hobbes
Deanna Troi - Star Trek: The Next Generation
Doctor Julian Bashir - Star Trek: Deep Space 9
Doug Funnie - Doug cartoon
E.T. - E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial
Fox Mulder - X-Files
Rocko - Rocko's Modern Life
Tommy Pickles - Rugrats
Wesley Crusher - Star Trek: The Next Generation
Monday, January 28, 2008
Personality test-- INFP - Dreamer
have just taken the personality test at this link and here comes some jobs which i might be best in :-)
let me bold some i've been doing yaa.
diliat dari daftar ni, tnyata slama ini g cukup melakukan pekerjaan2 yg sesuai ma apa yang jd talenta n karakter g... cm rada serem jg g bnyak bnget persentasiny di introvert..
see, mereka yg bilang g extro hrus g kasih liat hasil test up-to-date g. tiap x ktmu orang, mrk blng g extrovert.. mungkin karna g sk ngobrol ma orang baru n rada inisiatif mulai pbicaraan kale y yang bikin g kliatan xtro. pdahal g intro akut :-)
Activist *Food for the Hungry* *global warming*
Actor
Architect
Artist
Church Worker
Counselor
Editor
Educational Consultant *riec*
Employee Development Specialist
Fashion Designer
Filmmaker
Graphic/Web Designer
Holistic Health Practitioner
Human Resources
Journalist
Legal Mediator
Librarian
Massage Therapist
Minister
Missionary *i am still now,btw :-) *
Musician
Photographer
Physical Therapist
Psychologist/Counselor
Researcher
Social Scientist
Social Worker
Speech Pathologist
Teacher/Professor *cant wait to go from level "teacher" to "professor" hehehe*
Translator/Interpreter *mr.Zenko's projects*
Video Editor
Writer *love it!!!*
error state of me
see, i've been giving a deep thought bout "self control".
looks like my school life report in that subject is quite bad. my self control is so low that i did some stupid acts n chose unsmart decisions.
i just need to put more effort in it more than before.
looks like my school life report in that subject is quite bad. my self control is so low that i did some stupid acts n chose unsmart decisions.
i just need to put more effort in it more than before.
oh no, it happens again!!!
ugghhh...
*sigh*
*wink*
*sigh*
it happens again!!
UPSSSS
the connection is so bad..
i need to email this to mr.zenko. yet, waiting for almost 4 hours in this internet centre is so very useless, coz i'm not getting further in this attachment prosess.
hate every moment of it..
*sigh*
*hungry*
*lack of sleep*
*sigh*
*wink*
*sigh*
it happens again!!
UPSSSS
the connection is so bad..
i need to email this to mr.zenko. yet, waiting for almost 4 hours in this internet centre is so very useless, coz i'm not getting further in this attachment prosess.
hate every moment of it..
*sigh*
*hungry*
*lack of sleep*
hei, i'm truly blessed :-)
What's so poignant about this picture? Well, it shows a line of little girls holding hands facing the immensity of ocean waves. Alone they might be washed away, but together they stand strong.
Thank you each for holding my hand somewhere along the way when I was facing a wave of my own.
I hope you will reach for my hand when your own wave threatens.
well, got this pic from veena. well, it simply reminds me of those who may be shown in my own pictures like that... holding hands facing the emmensity of life.
in one of J.B.Jovi "saying thanks" note he wrote: if a man's happiness is counted by how many friends he has in life, i must be the happiest person in town
well, ppl may see me like an easy going person who r so fast in making friends. yet, i'm honoured to have those who r there thru the hard times of my life (the circle of friends: kmei, ktel, nandis, ndut, trouble, yunee, n those i forgot to mention... u know where ur place in my heart, rite??? :-0 )
Monday, January 21, 2008
aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh
what the heck is going on with the internet connection????!!!!! fyi, i'm getting tired pressing these keypad, i'm getting sick of looking at the screen :-0
God is there for u more than u know n feel
God, help me :-0
Please...
what the...???
WWWWHHHHYYYYYY?????
ARRRGGGHHHH.. i asked u to help me, rite, Je??
OOooooo
My son, I'll handle all these big stones :-) u can handle all those small ones, rite?? :-)Je, ajar aku u/ slalu sadar that U r committed to take care of my life.. ga da hal yang tjadi dlm hidupku yang dluar ijin n restuMu...
J'taime, Je
another translation
mr.zenko called last nite from china n offer me to do another translation for his cellphone project.well, i've been spending some times doing it since last evening.
here i am in front of the slow-loading PC waiting for the yahoo attachment process finished.
so thankful that i didnt have to stay awake again at the computer rental centre like the last time i received one of his project. this time i could be so comfy doing the translation at my cozy living room with the blue axioo. what i was afraid of didnt hapen, actually. see, i was kinda afraid that this neon axioo would get hanged or things like that. but, nope!!!!!! none of those annoying things happened :-)
i was supposed to give in the translation via email at around 11 o'clock as he's been waiting right at the cellphone factory in china.
man, i wish the attachement loading had been faster!!!!!
Sunday, January 20, 2008
19.01.08 at lapiz
looked for a pocket dictionary for siung2. met kpol n her boy.f at gramed.
dinner at sandwich bakar [yuni, siung2, renoy, kp, her bf called harris]
continued to starbucks lapizz [nandis, voni, dea, echa, kris, renoy, jacky]
got home at around 1pm.
got online with the guy who was hiking in halimun *i was NOT allowed to response anything from him, actually*
pesan moral malem-subuh kemaren: 1. girls just wanna have some fun NOW!!!! 2. i cant judge a book by its cover, REALLY... the thought came up when it turned out that 'u know who' was n is NOT like i think he was n is "-)
Thursday, January 10, 2008
axioo
i'm searching for a notebook n some friends suggest me to buy axioo...
well, here r some searching bout axioo:
Anda ingin membeli Notebook, tapi bingung dengan istilah & teknologinya ? Di bawah ini ada beberapa panduan detail mengenai Notebook Axioo, salah satu merek lokal terkemuka saat ini.
Axioo membagi beberapa segmen Notebook berdasarkan fungsi, yaitu tipe ORIS, CENTAUR & NEON. Axioo seri ORIS lebih menekankan lifestyle user dengan desain kompak, ringan dan berteknologi tinggi, seperi tipe SO256 dan NO258. Seri CENTAUR ditujukan untuk user bertipe mobile, profesional atau kalangan pekerja yang menginginkan fitur lengkap, seperti tipe SL728, NL658, NS718, ML016 dan MS016. Dan terakhir seri NEON ditujukan untuk user yang menginginkan notebook baru tapi berharga terjangkau tapi dengan performa cukup baik, seperti NV656, VL624 dan VL724. Semua seri ini menunjukkan komitmen Axioo untuk menjangkau semua kalangan masyarakat.
Ada dua hal yang mesti di-ingat dalam memilih notebook. Yang pertama adalah : Jangan terpaku pada merek Branded luar (karena hampir semua notebook saat ini berkualitas sama), dan yang kedua : Jangan membeli notebook bermerek dengan harga sangat mahal & tidak masuk akal. Sekedar informasi, Axioo saat ini berkisar antara 4 s/d 12-an juta rupiah saja (tergantung tipe & teknologinya).
Dan yang terakhir adalah memilih notebook yang fungsional : yaitu yang paling efisien dari sisi harga dan kegunaannnya. Jadi penting buat kita untuk menyesuaikan pilihan notebook dengan karakter pemilik serta fungsinya dalam pekerjaan sehari-hari. Pilihan tersebut daat disesuaikan antara seri ORIS, CENTAUR & NEON.
* Platform, yaitu background teknologi yang digunakan oleh notebook secara keseluruhan. Platform akan menentukan apakah suatu notebook memenuhi syarat-syarat teknologi baru atau tidak. Umumnya platform mengacu pada teknologi dari Intel, yaitu Centrino Duo, Centrino & Celeron-M. Intel Centrino / Centrino Duo merupakan platform dengan fitur sebagai berikut : kinerja terbaik dibanding generasi sebelumnya, baterai lebih tahan lama (3 – 5 jam), chassis notebook lebih ringan & tipis, serta Wireless internet terintegrasi. Rekomendasi : Centrino Duo cocok untuk user yang menyukai fitur notebook kelas atas (high-end), seperti pengolahan aplikasi Office, Grafis, Game & Multimedia. Untuk yang berharga lebih moderat dengan fitur sedikit dibawahnya, bisa pilih Centrino. Untuk fitur standar dan harga terjangkau dapat memilih platform Celeron M.
* Processor, saat ini ada 4 macam processor Notebook berdasarkan generasinya, yaitu Intel Core 2 Duo, Core Duo, Pentium M dan Celeron M. Intel Core 2 Duo dan Core Duo menggunakan fitur mutakhir Dual Core (otak ganda), dan digunakan pada platform “Centrino Duo”. (Mohon bedakan istilah Core Duo dan Centrino Duo !). Kelebihan Core 2 Duo / Core Duo lainnya adalah fitur L2 cache memory yang lebih besar & pintar, hemat daya dan tidak terlalu panas. Rekomendasi : sebaiknya pilih processor terbaru yaitu Intel Core 2 Duo / Core Duo yang digunakan pada platform Intel Centrino Duo. Tapi jika dananya terbatas dapat menggunakan processor Intel Pentium M (platform Centrino) atau Celeron M yang lebih terjangkau. Sesuaikan kebutuhan antara budget dan fungsinya.
* LCD Monitor, saat ini berkisar dengan ukuran 10”, 12”, 14” dan 15” inchi. Semakin kecil, biasanya notebook akan semakin ringan. Notebook mainstream (general) biasanya menggunakan ukuran 14” dan 15” inchi. Rekomendasi : Pertimbangkan kenyamanan ketika menentukan ukuran layar, karena sekali dipilih kita tidak bisa menggantinya. Notebook berukuran kecil 10” dan 12” cocok untuk orang yang senang bepergian (mobile), sedangkan 14” dan 15” lebih pas untuk orang yang menggunakan notebook dalam waktu lama di kantor atau rumah. Selain itu, ada baiknya mempertimbangkan layar tipe Widescreen (lebih lebar) agar sudut penglihatan lebih baik & nyaman
* RAM (Memory) berfungsi sebagai penampung data berkecepatan tinggi (di notebook disebut sebagai RAM SODIMM). Pilih notebook dengan RAM kapasitas minimal 512 MB (Megabytes), tapi akan lebih baik jika menggunakan kapasitas 1 GB (Gigabytes). Ini karena software terbaru seperti Microsoft Windows Vista akan lebih nyaman digunakan pada kapasitas tersebut. Semakin besar kapasitas RAM, akan membuat kinerja komputer lebih baik secara keseluruhan terutama untuk aplikasi “kelas berat”. Rekomendasi : Gunakan SODIMM Visipro 512 MB atau 1 GB dengan garansi lifetime. RAM Axioo gampang di-upgrade dan paling kompatibel dengan Visipro, dan sudah tersedia di semua dealer yang menjual Axioo.
* Hard Disk merupakan media penting yang berfungsi menyimpan seluruh data internal di komputer. Saat ini kapasitas minimal untuk notebook adalah 40 & 60 GB. Selain kapasitas, faktor penting lain yang perlu dipertimbangkan adalah kehandalan (reliability), kecepatan (transfer rata), interface (ATA/SATA), tahan terhadap guncangan dan faktor merek. Saat ini HDD mengarah pada teknologi Serial ATA (SATA) dengan kapasitas minimal 80 GB. Rekomendasi : Gunakan HDD Seagate Momentus ATA atau SATA untuk menjamin reliability, high speed, high durability dan bigger capacity. Seagate merupakan produsen HDD No. 1 di dunia, dan tipe Seagate Momentus tersedia di semua dealer yang menjual Axioo dengan kapasitas maksimal 160 GB.
* Optical Disk merupakan media untuk membaca kepingan CD dan DVD. Semua tipe Notebook Axioo tidak hanya dapat digunakan untuk fungsi komputasi/data, tapi juga dapat mengolah aplikasi multimedia seperti Film, MP3 Audio dan Gambar Digital. Jadi media CD dan DVD sangatlah penting untuk di-integrasikan. Saat ini hampir semua noetbook value menggunakan CD Combo dengan fungsi CD/CD-RW/DVD. Untuk tipe Mainstream dan High-End (seperti Centrino Duo) biasanya sudah menggunakan DVD Writer dengan fungsi CD/CD-RW/DVD/DVD-RW. Sebentar lagi akan dirilis Notebook dengan optical dics berteknologi mutakhir “HDD DVD” dan “Blue-Ray” yang lebih cepat dan berkapasitas raksasa. Rekomendasi : Jika budget cukup sebaiknya pilihlah opsi DVD Writer, dengan pertimbangan fungsi yang lebih banyak. Tapi umumnya Notebook Value & Centrino masih menggunakan CD Combo.
* Wireless Fidelity (WiFi) merupakan card yang berfungsi untuk melakukan koneksi internet nirkabel. Hampir semua Notebook saat ini sudah menggunakan wifi terintegrasi didalamnya, terutama platform Centrino dan Centrino Duo. WiFi (bisa juga disebut WLAN) merupakan fitur yang kompatibel diseluruh dunia, jadi bisa digunakan di negara manapun. Rekomendasi : Notebook Value dengan Processor Celeron M biasanya hanya menyertakan WiFi Card sebagai opsi, jadi user harus membeli card ini sebagai tambahan. Sebaiknya tambahkan card ini pada notebook, karena internet nirkabel (hotspot) sudah gampang ditemukan. Dengan notebook WiFi kita dapat melakukan koneksi dimana saja.
* Fitur tambahan (add-on), seperti integrated webcam, bluetooth dan card reader. Fitur-fitur ini lebih bersifat opsi dan disesuaikan pada setiap notebook dan kebutuhan pengguna. Apabila di notebook tidak ditemukan fitur tersebut, maka kita dapat membelinya sebagai device terpisah (umumnya menggunakan USB).
Untuk informasi lebih lanjut mengenai Notebook Axioo dan Product Knowledge-nya, harap mengunjungi kami di www.axioo.net atau didealer notebook terdekat dikota anda.
Sumber : id.axioo.net
my lens... my sight... with JE
state of today:
* amazingly HOT
* have just got back from Thaming Optic
* periode cram
well, after living without my glasses for almost 5 months, i FINALLY got a new pair. the old ones are just to broken to be fixed. see, the old pairs had been hanging on my nose for almost 7 years and they had gone trough all unimaginable broken condition.
i realized one thing on the way back home, though. see, i've been seeing things blurry for almost 5 months without glasses on my face. i stubbornly ignored it. AND today i just can feel how much different i see things with this (more trendy, mind you) new pair.
i can't help but feel that the same thing has been happening with my other eyes... my other sight... the sight of my heart and soul.
it's been quite blurry for months that i couldnt see things vividly, that my decisions were unwise, that my actions were unquestionly stupid-with capital S.
i want to see clearly again. not only for my physical eyes, but also (and most important) for my heart n soul.
i want to see things--EVERYTHIMG-- through ur lens, JE...
"ur words are the lamp i'll ever need for great bright sight, Je!!"
me in U,
U in me.
Together.
Facing the world.
My world... with Ur word...
together...
sorry that i let U go...
thanks for never letting me go, though :-)
i'm Urs, Je.
PERIODE
* amazingly HOT
* have just got back from Thaming Optic
* periode cram
well, after living without my glasses for almost 5 months, i FINALLY got a new pair. the old ones are just to broken to be fixed. see, the old pairs had been hanging on my nose for almost 7 years and they had gone trough all unimaginable broken condition.
i realized one thing on the way back home, though. see, i've been seeing things blurry for almost 5 months without glasses on my face. i stubbornly ignored it. AND today i just can feel how much different i see things with this (more trendy, mind you) new pair.
i can't help but feel that the same thing has been happening with my other eyes... my other sight... the sight of my heart and soul.
it's been quite blurry for months that i couldnt see things vividly, that my decisions were unwise, that my actions were unquestionly stupid-with capital S.
i want to see clearly again. not only for my physical eyes, but also (and most important) for my heart n soul.
i want to see things--EVERYTHIMG-- through ur lens, JE...
"ur words are the lamp i'll ever need for great bright sight, Je!!"
me in U,
U in me.
Together.
Facing the world.
My world... with Ur word...
together...
sorry that i let U go...
thanks for never letting me go, though :-)
i'm Urs, Je.
PERIODE
Friday, January 04, 2008
Oh, the Places You’ll Go!
Congratulations!
Today is your day.
You’re off to Great Places!
You’re off and away!
You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes
You can steer yourself
any direction you choose.
You’re on your own. And you know what you know.
And YOU are the guy who’ll decide where to go.
You’ll look up and down streets. Look ‘em over with care.
About some you will say, “I don’t choose to go there.”
With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet,
you’re too smart to go down any not-so-good street.
And you may not find any
you’ll want to go down.
In that case, of course,
you’ll head straight out of town.
It’s opener there
in the wide open air.
Out there things can happen
and frequently do
to people as brainy
and footsy as you.
And when things start to happen,
don’t worry. Don’t stew.
Just go right along.
You’ll start happening too.
OH!
THE PLACES YOU’LL GO!
You’ll be on your way up!
You’ll be seeing great sights!
You’ll join the high fliers
who soar to high heights.
You won’t lag behind, because you’ll have the speed.
You’ll pass the whole gang and you’ll soon take the lead.
Wherever you fly, you’ll be the best of the best.
Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.
Except when you don’ t
Because, sometimes, you won’t.
I’m sorry to say so
but, sadly, it’s true
and Hang-ups
can happen to you.
You can get all hung up
in a prickle-ly perch.
And your gang will fly on.
You’ll be left in a Lurch.
You’ll come down from the Lurch
with an unpleasant bump.
And the chances are, then,
that you’ll be in a Slump.
And when you’re in a Slump,
you’re not in for much fun.
Un-slumping yourself
is not easily done.
You will come to a place where the streets are not marked.
Some windows are lighted. But mostly they’re darked.
A place you could sprain both you elbow and chin!
Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in?
How much can you lose? How much can you win?
And IF you go in, should you turn left or right…
or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite?
Or go around back and sneak in from behind?
Simple it’s not, I’m afraid you will find,
for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.
You can get so confused
that you’ll start in to race
down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space,
headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
The Waiting Place…
…for people just waiting.
Waiting for a train to go
or a bus to come, or a plane to go
or the mail to come, or the rain to go
or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow
or waiting around for a Yes or a No
or waiting for their hair to grow.
Everyone is just waiting.
Waiting for the fish to bite
or waiting for wind to fly a kite
or waiting around for Friday night
or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake
or a pot to boil, or a Better Break
or a sting of pearls, or a pair of pants
or a wig with curls, or Another Chance.
Everyone is just waiting.
NO!
That’s not for you!
Somehow you’ll escape
all that waiting and staying.
You’ll find the bright places
where Boom Bands are playing.
With banner flip-flapping,
once more you’ll ride high!
Ready for anything under the sky.
Ready because you’re that kind of a guy!
Oh, the places you’ll go! There is fun to be done!
There are points to be scored. there are games to be won.
And the magical things you can do with that ball
will make you the winning-est winner of all.
Fame! You’ll be famous as famous can be,
with the whole wide world watching you win on TV.
Except when they don’t.
Because, sometimes, they won’t.
I’m afraid that some times
you’ll play lonely games too.
Games you can’t win
’cause you’ll play against you.
All Alone!
Whether you like it or not,
Alone will be something
you’ll be quite a lot.
And when you’re alone, there’s a very good chance
you’ll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.
There are some, down the road between hither and yon,
that can scare you so much you won’t want to go on.
But on you will go
though the weather be foul
On you will go
though your enemies prowl
On you will go
though the Hakken-Kraks howl
Onward up many
a frightening creek,
though your arms may get sore
and your sneakers may leak.
On and on you will hike
and I know you’ll hike far
and face up to your problems
whatever they are.
You’ll get mixed up, of course,
as you already know.
You’ll get mixed up
with many strange birds as you go.
So be sure when you step.
Step with care and great tact
and remember that Life’s
a Great Balancing Act.
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.
And never mix up your right foot with your left.
And will you succeed?
Yes! You will, indeed!
(98 and 3 / 4 percent guaranteed.)
KID, YOU’LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!
So…
be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray
or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O’Shea,
you’re off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So…get on your way!
-Dr. Seuss.
Today is your day.
You’re off to Great Places!
You’re off and away!
You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes
You can steer yourself
any direction you choose.
You’re on your own. And you know what you know.
And YOU are the guy who’ll decide where to go.
You’ll look up and down streets. Look ‘em over with care.
About some you will say, “I don’t choose to go there.”
With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet,
you’re too smart to go down any not-so-good street.
And you may not find any
you’ll want to go down.
In that case, of course,
you’ll head straight out of town.
It’s opener there
in the wide open air.
Out there things can happen
and frequently do
to people as brainy
and footsy as you.
And when things start to happen,
don’t worry. Don’t stew.
Just go right along.
You’ll start happening too.
OH!
THE PLACES YOU’LL GO!
You’ll be on your way up!
You’ll be seeing great sights!
You’ll join the high fliers
who soar to high heights.
You won’t lag behind, because you’ll have the speed.
You’ll pass the whole gang and you’ll soon take the lead.
Wherever you fly, you’ll be the best of the best.
Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.
Except when you don’ t
Because, sometimes, you won’t.
I’m sorry to say so
but, sadly, it’s true
and Hang-ups
can happen to you.
You can get all hung up
in a prickle-ly perch.
And your gang will fly on.
You’ll be left in a Lurch.
You’ll come down from the Lurch
with an unpleasant bump.
And the chances are, then,
that you’ll be in a Slump.
And when you’re in a Slump,
you’re not in for much fun.
Un-slumping yourself
is not easily done.
You will come to a place where the streets are not marked.
Some windows are lighted. But mostly they’re darked.
A place you could sprain both you elbow and chin!
Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in?
How much can you lose? How much can you win?
And IF you go in, should you turn left or right…
or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite?
Or go around back and sneak in from behind?
Simple it’s not, I’m afraid you will find,
for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.
You can get so confused
that you’ll start in to race
down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space,
headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
The Waiting Place…
…for people just waiting.
Waiting for a train to go
or a bus to come, or a plane to go
or the mail to come, or the rain to go
or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow
or waiting around for a Yes or a No
or waiting for their hair to grow.
Everyone is just waiting.
Waiting for the fish to bite
or waiting for wind to fly a kite
or waiting around for Friday night
or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake
or a pot to boil, or a Better Break
or a sting of pearls, or a pair of pants
or a wig with curls, or Another Chance.
Everyone is just waiting.
NO!
That’s not for you!
Somehow you’ll escape
all that waiting and staying.
You’ll find the bright places
where Boom Bands are playing.
With banner flip-flapping,
once more you’ll ride high!
Ready for anything under the sky.
Ready because you’re that kind of a guy!
Oh, the places you’ll go! There is fun to be done!
There are points to be scored. there are games to be won.
And the magical things you can do with that ball
will make you the winning-est winner of all.
Fame! You’ll be famous as famous can be,
with the whole wide world watching you win on TV.
Except when they don’t.
Because, sometimes, they won’t.
I’m afraid that some times
you’ll play lonely games too.
Games you can’t win
’cause you’ll play against you.
All Alone!
Whether you like it or not,
Alone will be something
you’ll be quite a lot.
And when you’re alone, there’s a very good chance
you’ll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.
There are some, down the road between hither and yon,
that can scare you so much you won’t want to go on.
But on you will go
though the weather be foul
On you will go
though your enemies prowl
On you will go
though the Hakken-Kraks howl
Onward up many
a frightening creek,
though your arms may get sore
and your sneakers may leak.
On and on you will hike
and I know you’ll hike far
and face up to your problems
whatever they are.
You’ll get mixed up, of course,
as you already know.
You’ll get mixed up
with many strange birds as you go.
So be sure when you step.
Step with care and great tact
and remember that Life’s
a Great Balancing Act.
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.
And never mix up your right foot with your left.
And will you succeed?
Yes! You will, indeed!
(98 and 3 / 4 percent guaranteed.)
KID, YOU’LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!
So…
be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray
or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O’Shea,
you’re off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So…get on your way!
-Dr. Seuss.
love never fails
Loaded with Love
Friday, January 04, 2008
“He…loads me with love and mercy.” Psalm 103:4
It’s time to let God’s love cover all things in your life. All secrets. All hurts. All hours of evil, minutes of worry.
The morning you awoke in the bed of a stranger? His love will cover that. The years you peddled prejudice and pride? His love will cover that. Every promise broken, drug taken, penny stolen. Every cross word, cuss word, and harsh word. His love covers all things.
Let it. Discover along with the psalmist: “He…loads me with love and mercy.”
Picture a giant dump truck full of love. There you are behind it. God lifts the bed until the love starts to slide. Slowly at first, then down, down, down until you are hidden, buried, covered in his love.
“Hey, where are you?” someone asks.
“In here, covered in love.”
by: M.lucado
Friday, January 04, 2008
“He…loads me with love and mercy.” Psalm 103:4
It’s time to let God’s love cover all things in your life. All secrets. All hurts. All hours of evil, minutes of worry.
The morning you awoke in the bed of a stranger? His love will cover that. The years you peddled prejudice and pride? His love will cover that. Every promise broken, drug taken, penny stolen. Every cross word, cuss word, and harsh word. His love covers all things.
Let it. Discover along with the psalmist: “He…loads me with love and mercy.”
Picture a giant dump truck full of love. There you are behind it. God lifts the bed until the love starts to slide. Slowly at first, then down, down, down until you are hidden, buried, covered in his love.
“Hey, where are you?” someone asks.
“In here, covered in love.”
by: M.lucado
global warming rally with SaNur students
sanur had this global warming rally sometimes ago. fina invited kp,tongkee, n me to join this. so, there we were marching with a bag in our hands to pick up garbage along the way from sanur to monas n back...
tongkee
wawa said that this one looks like i was in jurong bird park singapore... nope, it's actually in lapangan banteng
i've been quite a global warming activist in my own way. i became aware for the very first time after i watched oprah show with al gore as her guest. they discussed bout global warming so clear that i started to see the earth in a diff perspective.
see, it makes me upset to see how ppl i know n dont know are still unaware of how the earth may end up if we keep on neglecting to save the planet. like a few days ago, i was sitting in U13 public transportation, and there were a young mom with her little girl drinking a plasticful of ice tea. what happened next brought me to horror, as they throw those plastic to the mini river along the street. i couldnt help but think that it needs a HUGE change in ways of thinking to make jakarta ppl aware that throwing garbage n stuff in unappropriate places is so NOT COOL!!!!
my youngest sist even gets a little too much with this global warming thing (which i think is very cool). well, she prefers to use my used plate for lunch/dinner just to save some water :-), she will check around the house if there is any unusefull electricity running (she will turn it off immediately), she will bring cloth bags instead of using and taking plastic ones, yup, things like that.
eniwei... everyone, PLEASE save our earth!!!
tongkee 
wawa said that this one looks like i was in jurong bird park singapore... nope, it's actually in lapangan banteng
i've been quite a global warming activist in my own way. i became aware for the very first time after i watched oprah show with al gore as her guest. they discussed bout global warming so clear that i started to see the earth in a diff perspective.
see, it makes me upset to see how ppl i know n dont know are still unaware of how the earth may end up if we keep on neglecting to save the planet. like a few days ago, i was sitting in U13 public transportation, and there were a young mom with her little girl drinking a plasticful of ice tea. what happened next brought me to horror, as they throw those plastic to the mini river along the street. i couldnt help but think that it needs a HUGE change in ways of thinking to make jakarta ppl aware that throwing garbage n stuff in unappropriate places is so NOT COOL!!!!
my youngest sist even gets a little too much with this global warming thing (which i think is very cool). well, she prefers to use my used plate for lunch/dinner just to save some water :-), she will check around the house if there is any unusefull electricity running (she will turn it off immediately), she will bring cloth bags instead of using and taking plastic ones, yup, things like that.
eniwei... everyone, PLEASE save our earth!!!
Monday, December 31, 2007
pujangga 45 #2
sender: +62817685****
31-dec-2007 01:23:40
aku selalu dgr katamu...
bahkan emosimu...
walau aku hanya orang yg tersisih dr pagi,
namun aku cukup bahagia melewati 1000malam bersama senyummu..
smoga malam terulang..
sent to: +62817685****
31-dec-2007 01:35:18
ada senyum dimatanya saat mereka menyapa # ada bintang berpijar dimalamnya ketika mereka menghampiri # Pppssssttttt # it's one of those nites she treasures #
sender: +62817685****
31-dec-2007 01:43:59
aku tanya malaikat.. "apa Tuhan sayang aku..?" Dia sangat sayang padamu.. Apa buktinya Tuhan sayang aku.. Dia telah mengirimkan kamu seorang yg mbuatmu tersenyum
sent to: +62817685****
31-dec-2007 01:52:23
ketika tb saatnya saat pkataan'nya hnya sbatas kumpulan huruf2 tnpa makna # biar apa yang 'dia' lakukan u/ 'mereka' lbih bergema # biar tindakkan'nya' menjawab kbutuhan 'mereka'
sender: +62817685****
31-dec-2007 02:05:19
mataku mulai terpejam hingga cahaya itu bangunkanku
dia memang pantas memberiku cahaya
kalimatnya mulai mgoda hatiku
sentuhannya memanjaku
jangan Kau ambil senangku
31-dec-2007 01:23:40
aku selalu dgr katamu...
bahkan emosimu...
walau aku hanya orang yg tersisih dr pagi,
namun aku cukup bahagia melewati 1000malam bersama senyummu..
smoga malam terulang..
sent to: +62817685****
31-dec-2007 01:35:18
ada senyum dimatanya saat mereka menyapa # ada bintang berpijar dimalamnya ketika mereka menghampiri # Pppssssttttt # it's one of those nites she treasures #
sender: +62817685****
31-dec-2007 01:43:59
aku tanya malaikat.. "apa Tuhan sayang aku..?" Dia sangat sayang padamu.. Apa buktinya Tuhan sayang aku.. Dia telah mengirimkan kamu seorang yg mbuatmu tersenyum
sent to: +62817685****
31-dec-2007 01:52:23
ketika tb saatnya saat pkataan'nya hnya sbatas kumpulan huruf2 tnpa makna # biar apa yang 'dia' lakukan u/ 'mereka' lbih bergema # biar tindakkan'nya' menjawab kbutuhan 'mereka'
sender: +62817685****
31-dec-2007 02:05:19
mataku mulai terpejam hingga cahaya itu bangunkanku
dia memang pantas memberiku cahaya
kalimatnya mulai mgoda hatiku
sentuhannya memanjaku
jangan Kau ambil senangku
pujangga 45
sender: +6281768*****
30-dec-2007 09:40:05
Aku mati kak...
Dia mengambil senyum t'akhir hidupku
Satu persatu tangis menjengukku...
Sembahmu kini tak b'arti lg..
P'lahan ku hentikan jalanku m'cari kesenangan
sender : +6281768*****
30-dec-2007 23:07:53
Koma,aku mulai tertarik dgn siang...
akan aku langkahi malam2 bising tanpa suara...
Titik, aku akan hidup untuk melihat laut biru..
ya, semangatku sangat besar..
dendam kepada pagi yang segar, sore yg ramai..
dimana bisik itu berasal?
mungkin TUhan telah menyentuhku..
membelaiku dengan sayanNYA..
sent to: +6281768*****
31-dec-2007 01:05:27
Bisakah kupegang kata2mu? # bolehkah kutagih janji2mu? # aku pegang kata2ku # dan kau selalu boleh tagih janji2ku#
30-dec-2007 09:40:05
Aku mati kak...
Dia mengambil senyum t'akhir hidupku
Satu persatu tangis menjengukku...
Sembahmu kini tak b'arti lg..
P'lahan ku hentikan jalanku m'cari kesenangan
sender : +6281768*****
30-dec-2007 23:07:53
Koma,aku mulai tertarik dgn siang...
akan aku langkahi malam2 bising tanpa suara...
Titik, aku akan hidup untuk melihat laut biru..
ya, semangatku sangat besar..
dendam kepada pagi yang segar, sore yg ramai..
dimana bisik itu berasal?
mungkin TUhan telah menyentuhku..
membelaiku dengan sayanNYA..
sent to: +6281768*****
31-dec-2007 01:05:27
Bisakah kupegang kata2mu? # bolehkah kutagih janji2mu? # aku pegang kata2ku # dan kau selalu boleh tagih janji2ku#
Friday, December 28, 2007
cross present tonite
there will be a cross present (kata reni seh ini bahasa inggrisny tukeran kado). i'll take the pic of my present n i'll post it...
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
in my head lately
i've been thinking about this lately:
*it's so easy for me to feel related with someone*
mungkin krna g yg lagi melarikan diri dari komunitas yg bikin g mudah pcaya ma strangers. feel like it is totally safe to pour things out coz this stranger has nothing to do with the old times, coz this stranger may not be able to judge me from the unrepairable things i've made.
smpai sore tadi, g masih brasa ga belong ma komunitas yg dulu g sayang n adore so much. 6 bulan djakarta masih ga cukup buat g feel like i'm home. mreka yg dulu jadi tmpat naro cerita jadi orang2 yang sekarang g hindarin. kata2 nandis yg dl g pegang sering jadi kumpulan kata2 yang g acuhin. janji2 yg g buat ma nandis, stella, yuni, ayung, n diri g sendiri banyakkali jadi janji2 basi yg sering ga kerealisasi.
apa ini yg bikin g nyaman ngabisin puluhan menit cuma u/ ngobrol with a stranger dibanding ngabisin bebrapa waktu ma mereka yg dulu bareng mereka g suka bgadang nyusurin jalan2 jakarta hunting makanan?
apa ini yang jadi alesan sempurna knapa g lebih suka dial ke nomor yang hnya baru g knal sebulanan ini dibanding men'dial nomor mereka yang g apal diluar kpala??
apa ini knapa g lebih milih u/ pour n share things with a stranger--a stranger who now i feel like someone i really know n care--dibanding ma mereka yg pendapat n isi hatinya g cari??
ga nyamannya g dengan komunitaskah yang bikin g ignore fakta bahwa nDuT lagi dijakarta, n bahkan g ga niat nawarin waktu u/ skedar ktemu bentar??
ignore fakta gimana belasan malem dia nemenin nongkrong dipinggir senggigi cuma untuk ngopi ngemie n ngbrol ga jelas mpe subuh2??
ini pcakapan via sms 2 days b4 christmas:
nDuT: nast, g dah dijakarta.
g : *stlah 2jam'an* welcome to the crowded jakarta ya!!
nDuT: nast, r u okey?
g : iya'lah, mang np?
nDuT: gak np2
g : once again, welcome to jakarta!
nDuT: gt y
that's it, i didnt n dont even want to reply or do anything with the fact that he is here, in the same geographical location with me. just dont feel comfort n eager to do so.
sorry guys, i'm sorry, i just dont feel like spending times with u.
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry Don't cry Don't cry *taken from Fergie's*
it may just be a pseudo thing, i know. i know that it may not last. i know that it may be pathetic to feel this way.
or, it may not?? or is it just an escape from reality like i used to say...
tapi, kalo g mau reality g Je, it means that i'm escaping from You, Je. n i dont want to escape from You. i still want to be found in You, Je...
the point is, aku masih mau ditemukan dalamMU, Je.
*it's so easy for me to feel related with someone*
mungkin krna g yg lagi melarikan diri dari komunitas yg bikin g mudah pcaya ma strangers. feel like it is totally safe to pour things out coz this stranger has nothing to do with the old times, coz this stranger may not be able to judge me from the unrepairable things i've made.
smpai sore tadi, g masih brasa ga belong ma komunitas yg dulu g sayang n adore so much. 6 bulan djakarta masih ga cukup buat g feel like i'm home. mreka yg dulu jadi tmpat naro cerita jadi orang2 yang sekarang g hindarin. kata2 nandis yg dl g pegang sering jadi kumpulan kata2 yang g acuhin. janji2 yg g buat ma nandis, stella, yuni, ayung, n diri g sendiri banyakkali jadi janji2 basi yg sering ga kerealisasi.
apa ini yg bikin g nyaman ngabisin puluhan menit cuma u/ ngobrol with a stranger dibanding ngabisin bebrapa waktu ma mereka yg dulu bareng mereka g suka bgadang nyusurin jalan2 jakarta hunting makanan?
apa ini yang jadi alesan sempurna knapa g lebih suka dial ke nomor yang hnya baru g knal sebulanan ini dibanding men'dial nomor mereka yang g apal diluar kpala??
apa ini knapa g lebih milih u/ pour n share things with a stranger--a stranger who now i feel like someone i really know n care--dibanding ma mereka yg pendapat n isi hatinya g cari??
ga nyamannya g dengan komunitaskah yang bikin g ignore fakta bahwa nDuT lagi dijakarta, n bahkan g ga niat nawarin waktu u/ skedar ktemu bentar??
ignore fakta gimana belasan malem dia nemenin nongkrong dipinggir senggigi cuma untuk ngopi ngemie n ngbrol ga jelas mpe subuh2??
ini pcakapan via sms 2 days b4 christmas:
nDuT: nast, g dah dijakarta.
g : *stlah 2jam'an* welcome to the crowded jakarta ya!!
nDuT: nast, r u okey?
g : iya'lah, mang np?
nDuT: gak np2
g : once again, welcome to jakarta!
nDuT: gt y
that's it, i didnt n dont even want to reply or do anything with the fact that he is here, in the same geographical location with me. just dont feel comfort n eager to do so.
sorry guys, i'm sorry, i just dont feel like spending times with u.
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry Don't cry Don't cry *taken from Fergie's*
it may just be a pseudo thing, i know. i know that it may not last. i know that it may be pathetic to feel this way.
or, it may not?? or is it just an escape from reality like i used to say...
tapi, kalo g mau reality g Je, it means that i'm escaping from You, Je. n i dont want to escape from You. i still want to be found in You, Je...
the point is, aku masih mau ditemukan dalamMU, Je.
I in YOU
rasa'ku,
jiwa'ku,
hati'ku,
mimpu'ku,
gerak, keputusan, dan pilihan2ku,
nada dan suaraku,
seluruh keberadaan'ku... biar ditemukan didalamMu,
I'm coming back to the heart of worship,
it's all about You, it's all about You, Jesus,
I'm sorry Lord, for the things i made,
it's all about You, it's all about You, Jesus..."heart of worship" by.M.W.Smith
jiwa'ku,
hati'ku,
mimpu'ku,
gerak, keputusan, dan pilihan2ku,
nada dan suaraku,
seluruh keberadaan'ku... biar ditemukan didalamMu,
I'm coming back to the heart of worship,
it's all about You, it's all about You, Jesus,
I'm sorry Lord, for the things i made,
it's all about You, it's all about You, Jesus..."heart of worship" by.M.W.Smith
please use ur senses :-)
jangan pcaya kata2 yang keluar dari mulut g...
sering kali i dont mean them--
jangan pcaya expresi g...
sering kali i fake them--
jangan pcaya nada dan intonasi yang mengalun dari suara g...
sering kali i just make them up---
pcaya g dengan hati lo,
lihat expresi g dengan indra rasa lo,
dengar g dengan jiwa lo,
then, maybe... just maybe...
lo bisa lihat the real me...
sering kali i dont mean them--
jangan pcaya expresi g...
sering kali i fake them--
jangan pcaya nada dan intonasi yang mengalun dari suara g...
sering kali i just make them up---
pcaya g dengan hati lo,
lihat expresi g dengan indra rasa lo,
dengar g dengan jiwa lo,
then, maybe... just maybe...
lo bisa lihat the real me...
back to 2005
iseng g baca2 lagi blog g di friendster, n nemuin tulisan ini:
*created on 31th October'05*
yahoo net cafe @ blakang mataram mall...
today, i practically have nothing special to do, except ikutan komsel pemuda gabungan @ 7p.m di ruko. so, here i am, checking emails...menghabiskan banyak waktu ngider2 d mal sini bikin g rada takjub gimana antu'ny masyarakat mataram--terutama yang muda2--u/ rame2 latah 'menghias diri' untuk bisa skedar gaya di hari lebaran. hampir smua shopping sites rame...ngebludak...mal yang notabene ga tlalu gede jadi makin mirip pasar impres. g phatiin, slaen toko2 baju, tempat nomor dua yang paling banyak diserbu adalah gerai2 handphone. kalau liat gaya parahnya gaya konsumtif mereka, rasanya ga percaya kalo dibilang indonesia lagi ngalamin krisis kemiskinan nasional. fyi, ga cuma mereka yang memang tinggal di mataram, ampenan, or cakra aj yang niat belanja2. mereka yang tinggal jauh dari kota--dari lombok tengah, barat, dan sgla penjuru--rame2 nyusrek ngubrek k sini.
pagi tadi, g sempet denger'in interview aa.gym tentang overacting. well, g rasa tingkat kegairahan kebanyakan orang untuk mnyambut dan mrayakan hari kemenangan Muslim ini dah bisa masuk dalam definisi overacting. gimana ga???? hanya untuk keliatan gaya, modis, mampu, n tajir mereka bela2in nguras dompet mereka untuk sesuatu yg mungkin mereka ga perluin. g jadi miris ngeliat dah jauhnya bergeser makna idul fitri yg sebenernya...jadi inget lagu enno lerian jaman dia mungil dulu:
"sepatu baru--alhamdullilah, tuk dipakai dihari raya, ga punya pun ga ap-ap, masih ada spatu yang lama...buat apa pesta2, kalau gagal puasanya, yang penting imannya pada Allah"...well, kurang lebih gitu d lagunya, rada ga inget lagi :)
g pikir, nabi Muhamad bisa uring2an di alamnya dia skarang kalo dia liat gaya para pengikutnya...sama kaya gemes and mirisnya Yesus tiap bulan Desember saat Dia liat pengikutNya lebih mentingin tatanan dandanan fisik, cari berbagai kartu2 lucu, ngabisin banyak waktu pilah-pilih ornamen pohon natal, dan sgala tetek bengek ga penting laennya, dibandingin sibuk n concern'nya mereka mnata hati dan milih respon n sikap hati yang bener untuk jadi ornamen hati.
Merry Early Xmas :)
2 taon stelah g nulis ini, g jd brasa sedih. see, g ga punya sikap hati yg sama yg Je temuin 2 taon lalu.
natal taon ini, g jadi neeta yg ky 'dead man walking'. my body is alive but my soul n spirit is dying down there... it's not that i havent done anything to make it better, it's just that i havent really done it passionately.
i wish things had been different. wish i could erase and skip Your process in me as along the process i've just become such a loser. i knew and still know that these things are good for me in being strong in You, i just sometimes wish that You are not that serious :-0
see, i still find me running away. i still find me not okey in heart n soul department. i still find me not making good right truthful decisions n actions, i still am struggling to follow You...
i learn, though, that these days, my relationship with You is not based merely on feelings and naive emotion. it's more based on my decisions. seems like the days when You can be felt emotionally is over, here comes the moments n level when it is my decision to love You -- not just that i feel i love You.
let my love is shown through my actions... let me speak my love out in my real action, JE...
*created on 31th October'05*
yahoo net cafe @ blakang mataram mall...
today, i practically have nothing special to do, except ikutan komsel pemuda gabungan @ 7p.m di ruko. so, here i am, checking emails...menghabiskan banyak waktu ngider2 d mal sini bikin g rada takjub gimana antu'ny masyarakat mataram--terutama yang muda2--u/ rame2 latah 'menghias diri' untuk bisa skedar gaya di hari lebaran. hampir smua shopping sites rame...ngebludak...mal yang notabene ga tlalu gede jadi makin mirip pasar impres. g phatiin, slaen toko2 baju, tempat nomor dua yang paling banyak diserbu adalah gerai2 handphone. kalau liat gaya parahnya gaya konsumtif mereka, rasanya ga percaya kalo dibilang indonesia lagi ngalamin krisis kemiskinan nasional. fyi, ga cuma mereka yang memang tinggal di mataram, ampenan, or cakra aj yang niat belanja2. mereka yang tinggal jauh dari kota--dari lombok tengah, barat, dan sgla penjuru--rame2 nyusrek ngubrek k sini.
pagi tadi, g sempet denger'in interview aa.gym tentang overacting. well, g rasa tingkat kegairahan kebanyakan orang untuk mnyambut dan mrayakan hari kemenangan Muslim ini dah bisa masuk dalam definisi overacting. gimana ga???? hanya untuk keliatan gaya, modis, mampu, n tajir mereka bela2in nguras dompet mereka untuk sesuatu yg mungkin mereka ga perluin. g jadi miris ngeliat dah jauhnya bergeser makna idul fitri yg sebenernya...jadi inget lagu enno lerian jaman dia mungil dulu:
"sepatu baru--alhamdullilah, tuk dipakai dihari raya, ga punya pun ga ap-ap, masih ada spatu yang lama...buat apa pesta2, kalau gagal puasanya, yang penting imannya pada Allah"...well, kurang lebih gitu d lagunya, rada ga inget lagi :)
g pikir, nabi Muhamad bisa uring2an di alamnya dia skarang kalo dia liat gaya para pengikutnya...sama kaya gemes and mirisnya Yesus tiap bulan Desember saat Dia liat pengikutNya lebih mentingin tatanan dandanan fisik, cari berbagai kartu2 lucu, ngabisin banyak waktu pilah-pilih ornamen pohon natal, dan sgala tetek bengek ga penting laennya, dibandingin sibuk n concern'nya mereka mnata hati dan milih respon n sikap hati yang bener untuk jadi ornamen hati.
Merry Early Xmas :)
2 taon stelah g nulis ini, g jd brasa sedih. see, g ga punya sikap hati yg sama yg Je temuin 2 taon lalu.
natal taon ini, g jadi neeta yg ky 'dead man walking'. my body is alive but my soul n spirit is dying down there... it's not that i havent done anything to make it better, it's just that i havent really done it passionately.
i wish things had been different. wish i could erase and skip Your process in me as along the process i've just become such a loser. i knew and still know that these things are good for me in being strong in You, i just sometimes wish that You are not that serious :-0
see, i still find me running away. i still find me not okey in heart n soul department. i still find me not making good right truthful decisions n actions, i still am struggling to follow You...
i learn, though, that these days, my relationship with You is not based merely on feelings and naive emotion. it's more based on my decisions. seems like the days when You can be felt emotionally is over, here comes the moments n level when it is my decision to love You -- not just that i feel i love You.
let my love is shown through my actions... let me speak my love out in my real action, JE...
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
translation project
have been working on the cellphone translation since wednesday.
the effect of lack of sleep is that i've been so sensitive n easy to get pissed off. one nite, dede called i just got irritated n blew things to him. SORRY!!!
i've just sent the last revision (i really hope i dont have to make another revision) n i really cross my fingers that mr.zenko will approve it.
*sigh*
*smile* thank goodness i've done it!!!
*smile* it's great to have u on line with me,De!!!
the effect of lack of sleep is that i've been so sensitive n easy to get pissed off. one nite, dede called i just got irritated n blew things to him. SORRY!!!
i've just sent the last revision (i really hope i dont have to make another revision) n i really cross my fingers that mr.zenko will approve it.
*sigh*
*smile* thank goodness i've done it!!!
*smile* it's great to have u on line with me,De!!!
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kanker
kanker..
mati gaya..
mati rasa..
coz... those unprofessional people in RIEC are so annoyingly late to pay my rights!!!!
mati gaya..
mati rasa..
coz... those unprofessional people in RIEC are so annoyingly late to pay my rights!!!!
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
IT IS ALL VERY SIMPLE
by:janet@word-sculptures.com
Each of us has only one soul to fix ...
Each of us has only one heart to heal ...
Each of us has only one head to clear ... our own.
But we need all of us.
Without one, there is disorder ...
Without one, there is imperfection ...
Without one, there is a hole in harmony ... no whole.
It is all very simple.
We all matter.
conFLicT
"Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude."
"The harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph."
"Let others lead small lives, but not you. Let others argue over small things, but not you. Let others cry over small hurts, but not you. Let others leave their future in someone else's hands, but not you."
"We are injured and hurt emotionally, not so much by other people or what they say and don't say, but by our own attitude and our own response." - Maxwell Maltz
"Feelings of worth can flourish only in an atmosphere where individual differences are appreciated, mistakes are tolerated, communication is open, and rules are flexible - the kind of atmosphere that is found in a nurturing family." - Virginia Satir
the steps of comin back to Your tracks
last nite i decided to join the tuesday prayer.
to be honest, it felt weird n exciting. it simply reminded me how i had been. how i would have been willing to pay the price just to gather like this.
i'm taking the steps of coming back to YOUR arms, Je :-)
Monday, December 10, 2007
funny stuff
toothpastefordinner.com
well, i've ever read this interesting job vacancy in Kompas for doing data entry... it turned out that it was just this fake ad. for ppl to get involved w/ stock market. i made a phone call, though, and made an appointment as well [f.y.i. the company named Graha Venesha is located at BNI46]..
later on, i just felt not peaceful with this thing and called it off when the company's staff phoned me back for reconfirmation.
i always believe that it's always a great thing to follow ur heart. well, the same thing for this case. kstella n evan also experienced the same thing. evan even had already come n done some trainings it conducted. for me, bagus g ga kepo dateng n buang2 waktu n ongkos hehehehe
hohoho christmas is just right on the corner, guys
on sunday, joghin called from bogor as he was trying to find a christmas card with a pic of santa claus+reinders for his church painting projects.
it's funny how it seems like it's not like christmas seasons and receiving his call kinda reminded me that... HEI... it's christmas people!!!!!!!!
7 hours before the call, even when tongkee asked me to see the christmas tree she has set in the living room, i still found it hard to grasp that this is the season of christmas.
the questions are: WHY... WHY... WHY do i feel that way???
well, i guess it's because it's quite hot here... yeah.. just blame it on the weather!!! mmmmhhh, beside that, i think it's me who spiritually is not that okey... see, i hate the fact that it takes quite long for me to heal the pain, to be totally free in Your unconditional love, to be really ME in YOU.
last saturday, i happened to talk to nandis as he checked things out of me. he still could tell that i'm still not that okey... that i'm still quite a wreck deep inside.
this morning, i confess again, that I am YOURs, that i am willing to be go back to the last momment--the last track i left you and start from there again. well, i'm sorry for running n thanks for chasing me out with all the best effort U have. realizing that i just dont deserve it makes me realize once again, that YOUR love is not based in what i did/am doing/do/will be doing... it's simply as YOU've decided to do so.. J'taime Je :-)
new years is also right there on the corner, JE... i'm ready to have another journey in the chapter called 2008 with You...
Saturday, December 08, 2007
once again, JoGhiN
nope, it's not a streaptease show!!!
it's just him in his gokil state, i guess...
meet my pocarisweat brother named joghin
he's been a company --great refreshing company indeed!!-- to kill many insomnia nites lately :-)
edited version: 12/12/07 @ 09:45a.m.
pocarisweat brother = for the fact that he's always successfull in refreshing me up nomatter whatever situation i'm in --sleepy, moody, tired, whatever.
like this morning. i woke up at 5a.m with his sms sent at around midnit in my inbox asking if he might call me. well, guess what, he was still alert when i replied "-) whatta great way to begin my day!!! hehehe
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
joghin's poem
someone i recently know sms me this poem
jika mati itu mudah,
aku pasti sudah menyerah,
bahkan semua tertawa padaku,
kmana bidadariku pergi,
yang biasa menyelamatkanku,
seharusnya dia daritadi sudah berada disini...
-by joghin 01dec07-
Sunday, December 02, 2007
traveling light
i'm not the kind of person who is able to travel lightly. not a practical person at all.
just see the contains of my traveling bag, for example :-)
lots of useless things i bring just for the sake to be ready for anything.
well, hopefully, in the trip called life, i might be able to travel light. i desire to be able to travel without bags of sorrow, hatred, dissapointment, failures, loneliness, and other baggage i dont need to take in this life trip.
help me to be able to travel light, for YOUR sake, for my sake, JE.,,
still, crunchies from back then...
two places, in two different geographical positions.. still, Amazing!!!
U r amazing
never changing
always with me
enthrone within my soul
overflowing, my heart offers
in deep honour n worship..
U R AMAZING!!!
U r amazing
never changing
always with me
enthrone within my soul
overflowing, my heart offers
in deep honour n worship..
U R AMAZING!!!
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